Dear Love,
Other things that you should probably know about me is I am extreme animal lover, I have a dog and she is essentially my child and I love her to pieces even though she drives me crazy. She sleeps with me every night because I don't feel as lonely with her curled up next to me. I also have a great love of hallmark movies and almost any romantic comedy. They almost always make me cry. It's kind of ridiculous, but still true none the less. I am insanely almost annoyingly family oriented. They are so very important to me. I find that when I am away from them I tend to miss them tremendously. I call my mom at least weekly, sometimes daily. Mostly, because she is the one I tell my stories. When life throws me curveballs and when I can't handle what the Lord has placed in my lap, I tend to desire to talk to her and get her guidance. I love children and am super excited to be a mom. I want a quiver full of kids. (Know your bible and you will get that reference). I hope you like kids too. I want to work as a nurse for the rest of my life, but I desire more to stay home with my kids. Please don't ask me to work full time, while I am raising our kids. Because I will be submitted to you, but I will miss my kids every second I am at work. I am still and probably will forever be a hopeless romantic, even though I had a relationship end very badly, quite awfully actually. I still believe in romance and I want to you to be a gentleman and treat me like a lady. Because even though I can get down and dirty with the boys, I enjoy dressing up and going out too. I think that is probably enough for now. I stayed up late, watching an adorable hallmark movie, instead of sleeping like a sane person. That is the kind of irresponsible behavior you can probably expect from me.
I can't wait to meet you!
-C
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Saturday, October 19, 2013
To My Future Husband
Dear Love,
I don't know if I have met you yet. Here are a few things you should know. I cannot wait to meet you and am excited for our life together. Please forgive me my past for I did not always do it like I wish I had. I want to live a life that is pleasing to the Lord and I pray that you are a man that will love me like God loves me and forgive me my past and challenge me in the future. I am frequently wrong, but will try to play it off like I'm right. I will do my best to see life for all it's possibilities instead of getting stuck on the small stuff. I will try to best to be God focused, but sometimes have CADD (Christianity Attention Deficit Disorder), and focus on things of this world instead of God. Please help remain focused on God as far as I know the only medical treatment for this disorder is reading my Bible. So I ask you to hold me accountable as God and my mother do. To keep me honest and help me focus on Him and not on myself. .... For this time being that is all I have. I love you and cannot wait to meet you. May your day be blessed and keep me in your prayers as I am keeping you. I am about to get on a plane from P-town back to SA. Pray for safe travels.
Good Bye for now Love,
C
I don't know if I have met you yet. Here are a few things you should know. I cannot wait to meet you and am excited for our life together. Please forgive me my past for I did not always do it like I wish I had. I want to live a life that is pleasing to the Lord and I pray that you are a man that will love me like God loves me and forgive me my past and challenge me in the future. I am frequently wrong, but will try to play it off like I'm right. I will do my best to see life for all it's possibilities instead of getting stuck on the small stuff. I will try to best to be God focused, but sometimes have CADD (Christianity Attention Deficit Disorder), and focus on things of this world instead of God. Please help remain focused on God as far as I know the only medical treatment for this disorder is reading my Bible. So I ask you to hold me accountable as God and my mother do. To keep me honest and help me focus on Him and not on myself. .... For this time being that is all I have. I love you and cannot wait to meet you. May your day be blessed and keep me in your prayers as I am keeping you. I am about to get on a plane from P-town back to SA. Pray for safe travels.
Good Bye for now Love,
C
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
01 Jan 2013
So, it's that time again...
.... a new year....
.... a new perspective on life, on myself, on others. I tried really hard to post last year. but the truth is it never happened. I went through a lot though. Another year in San Antonio, I have now been here for almost 2 years. Titus has grown. She will be 2 in October. I will be another year older this year. I happened to get a boyfriend last year, but the way things went it just did not work out. Some people make great friends and great more than friends... others of us just make great friends and that's where it ends. So, here I am 2013 and still single. I enjoy my life. Still struggling health wise. I have what they have decided to call non-serum dependent rheumatoid arthritis. Which in english means I have symptoms that appear to be rheumatoid arthritis but I have no blood work that can prove it. I love Doctors and there incessant need to have everything in a nice neat little box so that it all makes sense. Ok so there might have been a hint of sarcasm in my last sentence....
2012 in Recap Highlights....
01- 10 Jan 2012 - Home
08 Feb 2012- Katie Visited
09 Feb 2012- with MD Fetchick for overall general joint pain- His prognosis take Ibuprofen, lab work taken.
10 Feb 2012 - My Birthday
28 Feb 2012 - with MD Fetchick - same as above - Decision take another anti-inflammatory and put on PT profile, more lab work drawn.
14 Mar 2012 - PT is closing in and profile was never submitted, called for telephone consult to get PT profile submitted.
24-29 Mar 2012- Jonathan Visited
10 Apr 2012- with MD Fetchick- still having really bad joint pain. He puts me on steroids. More lab work drawn.
17 Apr 2012- telephone consult put in to hand surgeon, MD Chambers.
18 Apr 2012 - with MD Chambers, injected my right hand with steroids, because it gotten to the point where it was too difficult to write, type and even use my hand.
28 Apr 2012- Caleb and I started dating
02 May 2012- Neurology appt to check to see what is wrong with numbness in all fingers on right hand except for pinky and excessive swelling and inability to make a fist with either hand and especially worse in the right.
07 May 2012- Telephone consult- found out MD Fetchick no longer works for the Air Force given a new PCM.
09 May 2012- Rheumatology appt with MD Higgs. He has decided that I have non-serum dependent rheumatoid arthritis and more lab work drawn.
16 May 2012- MD Kastern- doctor that has no idea what to do with me or how to help. Orders wrist braces for my hands due to such bad pain at night in hands.
19 -24 May 2012- Went home
30 May 2012- MD Denard- gynecology- put on birth control meds, to help regulate hormones, to see if that helps decrease the swelling issue.
31 May 2012- Melanie came to visit.
04 Jun 2012 - Got PPD drawn
05 Jun 2012- MD Higgs, put on steroids and plaquenil.
27 Jun 2012 - MD Cunningham Gastroenterologist. not able to keep any food down. Constantly going up or down far too quickly. Nothing to do at this point, but wait and watch.
08- 28 Jul 2012- @ C-STARS in Balitmore. felt great the whole time.
11 Aug 2012- Brewers vs Astros Baseball game
18 Aug 2012- Brian Regan Show
23 Aug - 02 Sep 2012- Home with Caleb and to WA
08 Oct 2012- Rheumatology Appt- stopped taking plaquenil and steroids
11- 15 Oct 2012- Dad Visited
26 Oct -05 Nov 2012 - Mom Visited
01 Nov 2012- EGD and Colonoscopy- all normal
16- 18 November 2012 ECHO Weekend with Kids
22- 24 Nov 2012- Caleb's Parents came to visit
25 Nov 2012- Caleb and I broke up
10 Dec 2012 - MD Higgs - Rheumatology Appt
22- 26 Dec 2012- Went home for Christmas
29 Dec 2012 Oregon State vs Texas Longhorns @ the Alamodome, sadly OSU lost. :(
31 Dec 2012 The Year is over... Not too shabby
Overall, I think I had a pretty good year. Learned a lot and saw a lot. glad to have the chance to start a new. Goals for this year.... eat healthier, figure out arthritis situation, get into flight nursing if it is God's will. Work out more. Train Titus more. Find new apartment. Study my Bible more and start by reading Psalms a book a week and meet with my accountability buddy once a week.
Lord Bless 2013!!
.... a new year....
.... a new perspective on life, on myself, on others. I tried really hard to post last year. but the truth is it never happened. I went through a lot though. Another year in San Antonio, I have now been here for almost 2 years. Titus has grown. She will be 2 in October. I will be another year older this year. I happened to get a boyfriend last year, but the way things went it just did not work out. Some people make great friends and great more than friends... others of us just make great friends and that's where it ends. So, here I am 2013 and still single. I enjoy my life. Still struggling health wise. I have what they have decided to call non-serum dependent rheumatoid arthritis. Which in english means I have symptoms that appear to be rheumatoid arthritis but I have no blood work that can prove it. I love Doctors and there incessant need to have everything in a nice neat little box so that it all makes sense. Ok so there might have been a hint of sarcasm in my last sentence....
2012 in Recap Highlights....
01- 10 Jan 2012 - Home
08 Feb 2012- Katie Visited
09 Feb 2012- with MD Fetchick for overall general joint pain- His prognosis take Ibuprofen, lab work taken.
10 Feb 2012 - My Birthday
28 Feb 2012 - with MD Fetchick - same as above - Decision take another anti-inflammatory and put on PT profile, more lab work drawn.
14 Mar 2012 - PT is closing in and profile was never submitted, called for telephone consult to get PT profile submitted.
24-29 Mar 2012- Jonathan Visited
10 Apr 2012- with MD Fetchick- still having really bad joint pain. He puts me on steroids. More lab work drawn.
17 Apr 2012- telephone consult put in to hand surgeon, MD Chambers.
18 Apr 2012 - with MD Chambers, injected my right hand with steroids, because it gotten to the point where it was too difficult to write, type and even use my hand.
28 Apr 2012- Caleb and I started dating
02 May 2012- Neurology appt to check to see what is wrong with numbness in all fingers on right hand except for pinky and excessive swelling and inability to make a fist with either hand and especially worse in the right.
07 May 2012- Telephone consult- found out MD Fetchick no longer works for the Air Force given a new PCM.
09 May 2012- Rheumatology appt with MD Higgs. He has decided that I have non-serum dependent rheumatoid arthritis and more lab work drawn.
16 May 2012- MD Kastern- doctor that has no idea what to do with me or how to help. Orders wrist braces for my hands due to such bad pain at night in hands.
19 -24 May 2012- Went home
30 May 2012- MD Denard- gynecology- put on birth control meds, to help regulate hormones, to see if that helps decrease the swelling issue.
31 May 2012- Melanie came to visit.
04 Jun 2012 - Got PPD drawn
05 Jun 2012- MD Higgs, put on steroids and plaquenil.
27 Jun 2012 - MD Cunningham Gastroenterologist. not able to keep any food down. Constantly going up or down far too quickly. Nothing to do at this point, but wait and watch.
08- 28 Jul 2012- @ C-STARS in Balitmore. felt great the whole time.
11 Aug 2012- Brewers vs Astros Baseball game
18 Aug 2012- Brian Regan Show
23 Aug - 02 Sep 2012- Home with Caleb and to WA
08 Oct 2012- Rheumatology Appt- stopped taking plaquenil and steroids
11- 15 Oct 2012- Dad Visited
26 Oct -05 Nov 2012 - Mom Visited
01 Nov 2012- EGD and Colonoscopy- all normal
16- 18 November 2012 ECHO Weekend with Kids
22- 24 Nov 2012- Caleb's Parents came to visit
25 Nov 2012- Caleb and I broke up
10 Dec 2012 - MD Higgs - Rheumatology Appt
22- 26 Dec 2012- Went home for Christmas
29 Dec 2012 Oregon State vs Texas Longhorns @ the Alamodome, sadly OSU lost. :(
31 Dec 2012 The Year is over... Not too shabby
Overall, I think I had a pretty good year. Learned a lot and saw a lot. glad to have the chance to start a new. Goals for this year.... eat healthier, figure out arthritis situation, get into flight nursing if it is God's will. Work out more. Train Titus more. Find new apartment. Study my Bible more and start by reading Psalms a book a week and meet with my accountability buddy once a week.
Lord Bless 2013!!
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